32!

Today is my 32nd birthday, and I have to say, I like the sound of 32. 30 was really difficult. So much so, that I didn't tell any of my co-workers that it was my birthday until I skipped out of work early. I didn't feel that I was where I wanted to be at 30, and more than anything, I wanted to turn back time. Do-overs are allowed, right??

At 32, I have a husband who loves me, and more importantly, gets me. I am close with my family, I have a house, food, heat, and a dog to cuddle when I'm feeling overwhelmed. With any luck, this next time next year we'll have a baby in the house, and I can't wait for that day.

Birthdays are as much a "new year" as the actual New Year holiday, and I have a feeling this is going to be a really good year.

Thanks to mom for nominating me for this award! I never win anything! I do try to be a nice, good person; someone my parents would be proud to have as a daughter. Even though I have always felt like I need to be "perfect" & the type of person that no one could find fault with (ha!), I am very often impatient & angry, and I still pout when I don't get my way. Thanks mom, for thinking I am nice, even when I don't think I am, and to the sweet ladies who read my ramblings.

I don't know exactly what the rules are for this award, although I think I'm supposed to nominate someone else, or multiple others. Anyone that I would nominate has already been, so today I give this award to all the wonderful bloggers I read. It has truly opened up a whole new world for me. The encouragement & kindness from strangers, a glimpse into their lives (who cried yesterday when they read Audrey had passed away, or last week when they saw Manda's ultrasound photo?), knowing I'm not alone in all the crazy things I feel (see any of Heather's posts from 2004 except that I don't have a kid) ~ it all makes me try to be a better person, the person I know I can be. The person (I fear) my husband thinks he married. A well-adjusted, non-neurotic, happy, person. And I'm not looking for coddling in any of this, it's just my truth & how I feel on most days. So, here's to my New Year!

TG